More Work Related Drama

I am thankful that I don’t have a BDSM related subject that I need to talk about because my mind is lightly distracted with work related issues. The city bylaw enforcement officer came with the city fire inspector to pay my boss another unexpected visit this past Thursday. Once again the boss was agitated with the surprise especially considering he was ready to leave for a meeting with a customer. I was in my office far down the hall but I could hear the raised voices and a chill crossed my skin. The bosses daughter was with them taking notes so later I was filled in with the details. Apparently the city bylaw enforcement officer had been provoked enough to suggest that he had the authority to revoke our business licence and shut us down. This is a bold statement and it leads to many questions. Can we be shut down immediately? Who has the burden of proof? Does the bad attitude expressed from my boss give the officer the right to revoke our business licence? What are the realistic expectation for compliance? Why did they insist on forcible action without offering all the present options for a reasonable compromise? I can understand why I heard the raised voices with three egos bashing heads in a power tripping contest. This is just one extra stress added to the pile for my week to follow. The boss will be leaving for holidays and we do not have an office manager on staff any more. I will be filling in for my boss and the office manager as best I can.

Ms B and Heroshi Part 4

Hero’s student has now informed him of her motivation to return home, entering in the arranged marriage and full fill the expectations of her family. I want to lead her down the garden path to discover her own desire to explore what Heroshi Takemi can offer. Her stubborn insistence to follow the programming of her family is a hurdle that I am not sure I can leap with logical debate or subterfuge. If I can move her with a romantic and sensual path taking her in the heat of passion then Hero can establish a stronger emotional bond and reduce her viability as wife in the arranged marriage. I did not want to see her bolt but am expecting her to takes drastic steps away from Hero’s path. I will have to force my hand and impose my will upon her in a physical way. This will cause a gap, pushing her away, as she realizes that Hero is enslaving her. Taking away her ability to fulfill the future as dictated by her family will bring her a feeling of shame and this she will blame Hero, rightfully so. The ability for her to recover and seek happiness with Hero will depend on the emotional ties that are established before she looses her family honor. Once she has been enslaved she will have to make a life decision weather to resist her enslavement and suffer the consequences or to embrace the situation and enjoy the rewards of submission. Perhaps time and nurturing can heal all the wounds.

Observations of Mental Discipline

I wish to expand on my recent experience learning about one aspect of D/s having to do with the submissive developing greater discipline. In our everyday lives we seem to be running though the day with limited time to stop or relax and unwind. Our minds seem to be constantly moving at that same accelerated pace. I want to compare this idea of mental activity to your first cup of coffee in the morning. I never drink coffee or use stimulants so I am only taking a wild guess but I had a friend describe that first cup of coffee as if a light switch was turned on in the brain. The awareness of the amount of mental activity is what I discovered over the past few weeks as I had been stopping for ten minutes of kneeling and focusing my mental thoughts on Ms B. Speaking to Ms B about my daily kneeling she pointed out the simplicity of my task and I suddenly became embarrassed when I realized how challenging it was for me to complete this simple task. I was amazed how difficult it was to control my mind from wandering off my focus. Not only the obvious distraction like noises, physical responses, or pets determined to get attention, but even the moments without distractions still required great effort to do this one seemingly simple task of focusing on Ms B. I don’t feel so bad anymore now that I have developed a mental routine to help focus my mind on the task and I forgave myself for being so undisciplined in the beginning. One of the lessons I wish emphasize for everyday life is that you can accomplish anything so long as you find and apply the tools of success.

Sub Chat: Expressing the Word Love

Sept 20 Sub Chat at the Forum

The single submissive feeling more like a dominant until they find themselves in a safe situation that brings out their submissive behaviors. This feeling of the submissive saying they move more like a dominant can be explained in the sense that as a single person you are responsible for your self, needing to be assertive while controlling your own life path. The topic seemed to naturally flow towards one of the goals of the single submissive, searching for and finding an appropriate Dominant. This was the point in conversation where my attention span had run out since I had felt it was repetitive from the past.

The final and most interesting topic was regarding the expression of the word love in the D/s relationship. In all relationships the word love means different things to different people and this seems to be the same in the D/s lifestyle. For some people in the D/s lifestyle their experiences of connection and mental bonding to their partner is significantly more powerful then traditional relationships. The expression of love is still a personal manifestation and varies for each individual. Most of the subs present in the sub chat expressed their preferences in different ways. Some people are very guarded with expressing the words I love you and simply cannot qualify while they believe they have not fully realized it. For other people speaking such words require the most of intense emotions and they place great significance on the meaning of the word love. Some people are comfortable saying the words “I love you” in a wide variety of situations. The complexity of value is expanded further when you hear someone uttering the words I love the way you make me feel or I love my pet fish. Some people are turned off when other people inappropriately over use the word love thus cheapening the meaning. You could imagine with the amount of detail that I tend to analyze a topic I will again have various different definitions for the word love and express it differently in a variety of situations. To me the most important way to express love is the way that best suits your partner. Knowing your partner well enough to verbally express your love or physically express your love through your actions when your partner needs to feel it.

Training and Correcting my Failures

Over the past 12 days I have been following a new order from Ms B. Each day before I turn on the computer in hopes to spend time with Ms B I must kneel with a specific body posture and focus my mind on her power over me. I experienced many different mental and physical sensation during these experiences and one sensation motivated me to add a stimulus to the normal procedure. I had made these additions in the past two days and then last night I discussed several details with Ms B. She pointed out to me that in adding to her instructions I had changed the intentions of the task. She gently set me back into my place thus correcting the situation and gave me writing assignment that I completed as follows.

This letter is written in the hopes that I have come to a higher understanding that within my D/s relationship, I have surrendered all my power and given you full control over my actions. I understand that you have taken appropriate action by correcting my failure to comply with the structure of my submissive station. I must learn to follow your directions to the letter and I must stop reading into your words. I feel I must apologize for my arrogance in presuming that I know what your intentions are. I must walk the path that you lay out for me and not stray beyond those boundaries. I must remember that each order and direction are specifically designed with a purpose and significant reason. I understand that when I deviate from your path I am loosing the intent of your lesson thus circumventing your power and control over me. Further more I must apologize for my actions in taking liberties without having expressed permission. In closing I wish to reaffirm my intent to meet your expectation as you hold me for consideration to become your collared submissive. I reaffirm that I have surrendered power of my self to you and accept your training, testing and control over my body, mind and soul to what ever ends you see fit.

Venting Issues from RL Work

This has nothing to do with my D/s lifestyle but I will take this opportunity to vent. At work yesterday I became the middle man playing peace maker between my boss and the firefighter who came to do a shop safety inspection. The boss had a heated debate in the hall way with the firefighter before the inspection began. The Firefighter was angered by the negative attitude from my boss so the inspector came to me and announced that he was leaving and reporting to the higher authority. I heard the last words from the boss, inviting the fireman to do his inspection, so I offered to take the Inspector on a tour. I gave him a set of safety glasses and the map I created for these types of safety inspections. The Firefighter accepted my offer and we proceeded through the shop as expected. About half way through, my boss once again intercepted the Firefighter and they exchanged more heated words. The Firefighter came to me and informed me that this attitude was unacceptable and he will be leaving to report our resistance to the higher authority.

This morning I had a new visitor from the City Fire Department Inspection Division. Once again I took the Inspector out on the same tour while my boss occupied his time in the office. The end result was predictable and easily accommodated accept for one new issue. The new flammable painting mandate recently implemented for all manufacturing facilities will now include our shop. He told me that he will be making a return visit next week with a city order to prohibit our painting process. When I brought this information to my boss, his face turned red and he demanded to call to speak to the city fire inspector. It took his daughter and myself much effort to explain the situation and settle his anger but eventually we gave him the inspectors phone number. The Inspector returned later in the afternoon to issue us an order of the safety codes act to cease all flammable painting operations. I inquired why he returned a week early and the inspector replied because your boss conducted the phone call with belligerence and my superior instructed me to issue the order immediately. The good news is that the boss is investigating the implementation of a fire safe painting procedure even though it is only 10% of our manufacturing operation. Based on my conversation with the boss I believe we should still have a job for a while to come.

Ms B and Heroshi Part 3

Walking through the town of Lenn Amar, Heroshi was stopped by Lady Jade. She gave him two robes as payment for a previous transaction. Jade inquired how much it would cost for Hero to make a new bastard sword and a short sword both with the greatest of properties. During the conversation his newest student (Ms B) came to visit and each of the three exchanged pleasantries. The sweetness of the conversation had an air of sarcasm followed by the implication that Hero’s new student was related by family ties. He was perplexed with the situation, resisting the urge to correct the words exchanged by the two woman. In reality I had a voice in my ear encouraging me to react in ways that would contradict my personality. Hero’s personality and my own have many things in common. I try to justify my behavior and Hero’s behavior by applying some of the ideas invoked by the Bushido code. The voice in my ear suggested that Jade was not treating me with the respect that I deserve as a Dominant when she referred to me with cute names. REI - Polite Courtesy: Be respectful for I do not need to prove my strength. Heroshi believes that Jade had no intentions to make me appear lesser of my station or status. I felt it would be impolite to publicly correct her and if I had done so the public perception would be that I am establishing my Dominance. The voice in my ear then suggested that I should punish Jade by charging her double the price for my crafts but this would conflict with Hero’s understanding of GI –Honesty: Be acutely honest throughout my dealings with all people. The entire situation was amusing and I attempted to emote for Hero in ways that were intended to support the amusing mood and sarcasm being expressed by the two ladies. Heroshi does not have the luxury of hearing Ms B’s voice in his mind so the way he reacts to his student should be restricted to the actual words and emotes that she posts in game. Now that the actual words of her posts are lost to the server reset I will have to pick at the implied ideas in my memory and consider a new lesson for Hero’s student.

Ms B and Heroshi Part 2

Heroshi Takemi has invested some of his free time to make his mystery guest (Ms B) feel more comfortable in the City of Lenn Amar. He took a visit to the Jewel of the city clothier and picked up some outfits for her with accents reminiscent of their common heritage. They took a walk through the city but lost focus to a tense discussion regarding Heroshi’s family and some of the military conquest of his brother. In efforts to defuse the intensity of the topic Heroshi lead the young Asian woman to Paradise Gardens and the druid grove within. He opened up to her with some private details of his life and encouraged her to share the truth of her past. She attempted to take advantage of the moment while Hero had seemingly lowered the icy barriers that held back his emotional attachment. Her subtle and sensual actions suggested that she was offering her self to him but he refused to reciprocate and softly suggested that she share her secrets before he would consider letting her in. She confessed her fears and expressed her need to find a safe place in the care of the only person she felt she could trust. She sought his knowledge to teach her the skills of survival in these foreign lands sighting the fact that she had no skills in physical defense. Heroshi expressed his desire to help her find a path and agreed to be her Sensei. He lead his new student to the clothier and handed her two bags of holding filled with the most protective magical items found in the lands, many of witch he made himself. After the final fitting of her new enchanted leather armor they walked to the docks and took the sailing ship to Pirates Cove. The north side of the island was home to an unfortunate farmer with a spreading case of mad cow disease. This is where Heroshi taught his new student how to fight and defend herself with the quarter staff. After putting down all the mad cows and killer chickens they returned to the sailing ship for the voyage back to Lenn Amar. The swells on the sea were treacherous and sickening so Heroshi closed his eyes and rested on the bunk in the cabin until waking to the nuzzle of an adult panther. Hero’s eyes grew wide but the only fear he knew was that for his missing student. Scolding the panther only sparked a horrific transformation as the naughty pussy sprouted dragon wings and leaped into the air as a Red Wyrmling. The baby dragon puffed a cloud of smoke in a haughty expression of annoyance. Fearing the smell of burnt hair, Hero quickly took his helmet and strapped it to his head. The Wyrmling landed in the center of the cabin and began another horrific change. Hero’s body relaxed as the form of a beautiful Asian woman stood in place where the dragon had just landed. Hero remarked with a scolding tone, I knew you were holding back a secret. His new student bounced gleefully and replied with a cheery tone “Surprise!” Hero’s helmet turned slowly from side to side as a soft chuckle of relief sounded from the mouth slit in his scowling mask.

Sexuality and Begging for Permission

The Dominant has taken responsibility to ensure all my needs are met. The submissives mind should be thinking that the Dominant’s needs, wants and desires come first. My wants and desire are secondary and at some appropriate time it would be my responsibility to express them. I would imagine the proper protocol to express my wants and desires would be to show respect and demonstrate how she has power over me by begging for permission. Although we have discussed this concept in passing I do not have a frame of reference or an example to follow. In the few situation where I felt I had to make an attempt to beg for forgiveness or beg for permission I felt I was sounding insincere and goofy as I fumbled with words. Over the past two months there have been few situations that had required me to seek permission. The majority of my wants and desires are still in my control and my responsibility to attend to. I have lived independent and self sufficient for the majority of my adult life and I took pride in the fact that I did not need to request the participation of another. Now focusing in on my sexual behavior again I took pride in the fact that I did not need to be the sexual aggressor and that I took care of myself as the want and desires grew. My way of expressing my wants and desires to my lovers were typically subtle, non verbal actions such as touching, hugging, kissing or suggestively verbal responses to conversations with sexual undertones. I would be watching my lover to detect signs that she is receptive or aroused and intensify my actions if her reactions were positive. Typically this inspired my lover into initiating the act of love making and that was the emotional ego stroke that has always brought me great pleasure. In the situation where I could not inspire my lover into action I sympathized with her feeling and both physically consoled her and reassured her that I was not disappointed. I do not recall begging or expressing my desire to make love in forceful actions. In my relationship with Ms B I presently have control of my sexual satisfaction during the time we are apart. I typically choose a day of the week when it is least likely that we can interact sexually and so once or twice a week I satisfy my sexual appetite. Having my sexual appetite well under control and satisfied means that I do not experience many days with a burning desire to relieve myself. An important part of asking for anything from the dominant is the honesty and sincerity on the part of the sub. I feel it would be the same requirement when begging for sexual activities and since I do not have many burning desires I have not found a moment where all pieces of the puzzle were in play. In fact most of the time I do not expect to engage in any sexually charged activities. The limitations of a long distance relationship and the real life time constraints are simply too great and it is better to not charge my self only to leave myself feeling disappointed or worse. So I deal with this by eliminating expectations and open my mind to go with the flow.

Filling the void over long distance.

Over the past few days I have been working on a statement for the benefit of the members of the Takemi Dojo in the Neverwinter Nights public game server, Phoenix Rising. I received approval from significant parties involved and then posted it into the general discussion category of the Phoenix Rising Forum message board. The next day I discovered a response that was contrary to the intent of the statement but I held myself back from responding in haste. I re-read all the information several times and finally revised my posting to emphasize the intent of the statement and counter point, without appearing to be confrontational.

Ms B has been an important motivational inspiration and a resource of ideas to guide many of the steps I have taken in recent weeks. I have also experience a greater satisfaction with the amount of training and exposure of BDSM related activities and D/s relationship behaviors. Some of these experience are conveyed in Second life Game with Adrien where I have no inhibitions and I welcome Ms B to test our personal boundaries. We also voice over IP where my physical and mental boundaries are far more sensitive. Typically I do not hold much formality in voice and so far Ms B has tolerated the randomness of my behaviors. I speak my thoughts more openly and I feel comfortable taking risks when sharing good natured humor. I am more emotionally sensitive and expressive witch can work for me or get me into trouble. I recall an idea that suggested this type long distance relationship forces both individuals to focus on emotional aspects within short bursts of time. This limitation of connectivity creates a void that needs to be filled, perhaps like an addiction and does not seem to be satisfied. People tend to fill the void with an illusionary life with there partner, constructed idealistically with our imaginations. My question is, am I living vicariously in the perfect illusion of my mind and would I be in such bliss if I were to experience the true reality of the complete D/s lifestyle?

Are you sure it is all about her?

Last night Ms B and I shared another stimulating conversation.... Get your mind out of the gutter. It was purely intellectual. Well, mostly. Anyways, she clarified my misunderstanding of the dramatic event that she has planned for some unknown time in the future. She helped me finalize my statement for the Takemi Dojo on the official position regarding BDSM and slavery. Among several other topics, she had also graced me with a compliment. I forget the exact words that she used but it was something to the effect that she was pleased with my progress in my role as submissive in our relationship. I was happy to receive her praise but I could not imagine the ways that I might have improved. On the contrary, I remember two times in recent memory where I felt depressed that I had disappointed her, denying her the power of control and satisfaction in our relationship. If I were to exclude these two situation, generally I respond to her with honest and natural reactions. If the majority of my natural behavior is pleasing and reflect her expectation of a submissive male, then I say that is a wonderful thing. I simply cannot see how my behavior has changed. Instead I think most of my behavior was always a part of me but it might require Ms B to create specific circumstances to present the opportunity for me to express it. Additionally it takes someone to be paying attention with the knowledge and ability to recognize my behavior for what it is. Perhaps it is just me who cannot see her subtle manipulations that slowly and stealth fully alter my behavior to conform to her desires. Yes, it is suppose to be all about her, and if she is happy, I am too. … Oh my god … where did that come from?

Voicing my Resolve for her Collar

Last night Ms B reminded me that we are focused on a D/s relationship and the present course will eventually lead us to a dramatic and unpleasant climax. Imagining that this event would be designed to test my resolve in a moment of time where I would experience the worst that I could be subjected to once I commit my submission to her. During this event, she might require me to make a decision to kneel for her collar, or walk away. Will I give the same answer over voice compared to if we were face to face in real life? If I beg for her collar in voice and she tests my resolve, does that hold as much weight as testing my resolve in real life situation? If I persevere and she chooses to collar me in voice, I would imagine that the contract we make would be just as valid and binding if we were to meet in person in the future. So how do I make a confident and informed decision if I do not have real life, face to face experiences to base my decision upon? Ms B tells me that she is the same person in real life as the person I have come to know in cyber space. Based on the voice conversations I have with her, I believe that I can confidently take a leap of faith and base my decision on my impression of her so far. When the day comes and she tests my resolve to submit for her collar, I believe that the sum total of my emotional attachment and positive experiences will far out weigh the short term discomfort of her test.

The Takemi Dojo stand on Slavery

An issue has been brought to my attention that has effected me and the members of all ranks in the Takemi Dojo. In the past, this issue was dealt with privately so I had no insight as to what extent it had effected the other members. This day was different in that our elected leader took a public action to appease those who would speak out against us. This action has troubled me but I was not armed with the knowledge to defend our position. I had discussed my problem with Ms B and she helped arm me with the ideas and words to make a stand. The following is my first draft of a public statement that I will be sending to the host of the server where this issue has risen. I have already received the blessing of the two highest ranking members of the Takemi Dojo.
The Samurai are a part of the social order of their society, thus follow the laws and orders as dictated by the Shogun, or in our case, Lord Cougar. They are bound to uphold justice for the benefit of society by the Code of Bushido, The Seven Virtues of the Samurai. The Takemi Dojo exists only because the council granted us this privilege, so long as we conform to the laws of the society that the council has created in Lenn Amar. The Code of Bushido does not give us a higher or lower standard then that of the society we live in. The laws and standards of Lenn Amar as dictated by the Council of Pheonix Rising is the bench mark set for the members of the Takemi Dojo and all citizens to make judgement for what is right and wrong.
The Council of Pheonix Rising has decreed that it is legal and justified in the city Lenn Amar to collar and own another person in the form of consensual slavery. This act of consensual slavery must be granted directly from Lord Cougar or Periwinkle in order to gain authentication. This is one of the social orders that the members of the Takemi Dojo must accept and defend in our efforts to set an example of what is right and wrong, lawful and just in the city of Lenn Amar.

Sept 4 Hats off to Ms B

Looking at the trees this morning I noticed the green leaves were starting to change to yellow. The smell of fall was in the air. I dismissed this as a subtle hint that this was a day for change. The owner of the company that I work for told me his daughter was due to make her first appearance in effort to put the office back in working order. This was welcome news since we have been missing staff in three different departments for a long time now and we have not had any success recruiting new personnel. As you could imagine my work days fly by quickly in these circumstances and I had not spent much time thinking about the appointment I had made for the evening. My emotions were relatively calm as I came home to shower and then driving to my sisters house to make my appointment. The lady hair stylist seemed to be more concerned that I was emotionally prepared for this change then I was. I was tired of thinking about this move during last week and I had no second thoughts at all before, during or after the anticlimactic moment of cutting my 10 inch pony tail. She then cut, snipped, buzzed and fussed about my head for nearly 45 minutes, ending with a picture taking ceremony. I am pleased that I have a low maintenance cut and I was confident enough to leave my hats off for good. I am satisfied with my front profile but I the side and back profile of my head seems less appealing to me in my opinion. That being said I think it is an improvement over the hat and pony tail. I owe this ground breaking occasion to the motivation and support that Ms B has provided because although I had wanted this for a long time, I had no reason to do it.

Expolring a new role. Sept 3

Ms B and I are experimenting with some new roles in our exploration of the D/s lifestyle. Well perhaps it would be new for her but in my case I am role-playing with an established character with a colorful history going back almost three years. To set the stage for the most recent development in his life I would imagine that he was summoned by a messenger to the front gate of the city of Lenn Amar. Once arriving there, a young lady dressed in simple clothing had noticed my presence and commented how my appearance was familiar to her. She suggested she knew my brother and then made a bold statement. I perceived there were deceptions in her explanation of her relationship with my family and I felt it necessary to get to the bottom of this mystery. I suggested that she would not be safe unless she trusted me enough to take refuge on my property. Once she accepted my offer I lead her to the Dojo and began contemplating a plan to get to the bottom of this mystery woman. First I must send message to my brothers and get some idea of what is going on. Mean while I shall treat her as a guest while assessing the degree of threat she might represent to my little empire in the oasis.

Defiance and Sincere Apologies

Wanting to say yes but it came out no. I remember the thought crossing my mind, Ms B lives 2000 miles away and she has no way to ensure that I do what she says. I was aware that I could deceive her and tell her that yes I will never wear a hat again. To me it was far more important to be honest and say no, I was not willing to follow that order. She relies on my honesty and if I fail to be honest, then the foundation of our relationship falls apart. I do not think she expects a submissive to answer yes and willingly accept every order she commands without question like programming a computer. After all, what fun would that be? Not that I am condoning defiance for the sake of entertainment but I think there is a level of entertainment and satisfaction for her to see me struggle and grow into a better person through my learning from the situation.

There are some things that I cannot hide. My voice gives me away. What do you do when you owe someone an apology but you are not feeling totally sincere? I know they are expecting me to recognize my failure but I am clouded with excuses. Trying to express an elaborate apology in this situation usually does not come across as sounding sincere and attempting to fool them would be dishonest. Telling someone that I understand their feelings but disagree with the details will not give then the resolution of a sincere apology. Perhaps my only recourse is to beg for forgiveness of my stubborn pride, well, at least I own Ms B that much.

Solutions for the Follicle Challenge

My search for a hair dresser has become overwhelming to the point where I want to just be done with it for better or worse. My search started in the Yellow pages of the phone books where I found one salon boasting of there recognition of skills in a western living publication. Next I found a salon boasting of there work with public figures in the local entertainment and journalist industry. Then I found a salon who specializes in thinning and balding conditions while offering cosmetic reconstruction. The idea of natural re-growth is more appealing so I investigated the Laser light rejuvenation therapy. Noticeable results in 14 to 30 weeks will not resolve my short term dilemma so I spoke to a few people asking for advice and the consensus seems to be that I will not be able to rid myself of my hat hiding baldness issues. Whether I shave it all off, or leave it long, it is my self image that will cause my discomfort. Even if I get an amazing cut and style I will still need to overcome my mental insecurities. Speaking with my sister last night, she suggested that I let her hair stylist do the deed this coming Tuesday. I agreed that I should commit to this appointment more so based on the fact that all this indecision was pushing me further away from the goal. As much as it scares me I am trying to hold on to the idea “ Just Do It “ and deal with the consequences after the fact.

Sub Chat: Slave Auctions

My usual Thursday night routine includes a visit to the forum where I can sit in on the sub chat discussion. Although I was more focused on chatting with Ms B in voice I did notice one topic that seems to always conflict in my mind. Many times in the past I had heard subs express there desire to be sold in auctions. They speak in such a passionate and romanticized tone that even I can get washed away in the fantasy. The idea of a few Domme out bidding each other to claim me as a prize and cherished pet is powerfully appealing. A sub can romanticize and fantasize over this all they want but in reality the dominant does not look at such a purchase with such rose colored glasses. I have heard more stories that ended in horror then have ended in bliss. Letting yourself be bought and sold is the journey into slavery where you have no rights and no control over who shall own you or how you will be treated. A dominant does not buy a slave thinking that this is a compatible specimen to be coddled or nurtured but instead the dominant will force the subject to conform to function in a specific purpose whether the slave likes it or not. Granted for some slaves this situation is their kink but I would caution all subs that this idea should remain as a fantasy. Perhaps a reasonable compromise would be in a charity auction where the sale of a slave is controlled within a firm and binding contract with a reasonable period of time. Perhaps someone can role-play out a sold into slavery fantasy over the internet via Second life or Neverwinter Nights game software. In general I feel that subs are vulnerable to a situation where they can easily find themselves submitting to slavery only to be taken advantage of.